Little Things
You know what I hate. When people, when others around you try to make you feel guilty for the “things” you do. Actually, what I really hate, is when someone tries to make me feel like I need someone else to grow, someone else to better myself. As if I couldn’t continue life if they were not in my life. I felt trapped like a mouse in a cage with no where to go, no way to grow. Why did I break up so many times, and go back? Why did I supposedly play, lie, and cheat? Why does anyone do that. It’s called insecurities, being raised differently, not having a family. How am I to openly admit this? Simple, I have come to a realization in life. Some sort of plateau where I feel stuck, constantly struggling to get farther in life. Everybody tells me, everyone around me uses me for my money, my image, my success. What were they before the money? Tell me that… Maybe it’s because I am so nice, I constantly give, from the kindness of my heart, I just offer, and offer, over and over. Maybe it just came to a point of they just got use to it… It’s not like they never invite me somewhere, offer to pay for something. God, do people have to be so ignorant — lack of self knowledge. How about I shove 2 million dollars in your face over the course of two years, and see how your friends react. If anyone comments something stupid, it’s not going up, so don’t even try hating, it won’t get you anywhere. Relationships are so much work, to much work for my “young immature” self I guess, people doubt me, look at me and think I am incapable. Look at yourself, where are you? Fuck, fuck you all 
Bye.
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ANDREW! Amazing! I hope you're new PROJECTS DO GREAT!
I also hope you stay motivated. It's nice to have you BACK! 
I will definitely be posting more soon on my new photo blog :D 
I agree with Dewayne,
Would love to see more, thanks for taking the time, very informative. 
when are we going to see another one of these (?_?) 
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Comment by Don Wilson on 26 June 2007:
Hells yes. Your friends should be your friends and not solely there for what you have.
Comment by Andrew Ellis on 26 June 2007:
I know what you mean man, people “act” like friends and are never really there for you when you really need them.
And when you need some help here and there for something, they turn around and say you’re being selfish or some bullshit like that.
Trust me, I’ve had my share of “friends” like that. Now when people do that things like that to me, I straight up tell them to piss off. Maybe that’s why people think I’m so uptight… But it’s those kind of people that have made me this way.
My trip to Arizona may result in me never returning to Colorado, we will see.
My family in Arizona doesn’t fight and talk shit behind each others back. I also seem to “click” with the right kind of people down there too.
Seriously man, if you ever want to talk or something I’m on AIM most of the time. I don’t actually know you, but this doesn’t mean I’m someone you can’t talk to. I’m all ears and up to let you vent whatever you need to (I do this a lot for my mom, friends, and who ever just needs to fucking vent to help feel better).
See you around man.
-Andrew Ellis
Comment by Jack on 27 June 2007:
A persons character is not measured in money those people that measure someones character in money have no character your finally getting smart the only thing money can buy is freedom the people that think otherwise r loss souls wat an awful life to live –the Donald Trumps of the world so sad–A mans success is not measured by the car he drives but rather by the knowledge he gains through life the love he gives and the mentoring of the young otherwise he is just another idiot with a nice car peace my freind find it
Comment by Jack on 27 June 2007:
A persons character is not measured in money those people that measure someones character in money have no character your finally getting smart the only thing money can buy is freedom the people that think otherwise r loss souls wat an awful life to live –the Donald Trumps of the world so sad–A mans success is not measured by the car he drives but rather by the knowledge he gains through life the love he gives and the mentoring of the young otherwise he is just another idiot with a nice car peace my friend find it
Comment by Saad Malik on 27 June 2007:
All in all Andrew, you’ve been and always will be an inspiration.
Thank you for everything you’ve done.
Comment by Dan on 27 June 2007:
You’ve got plenty of time to figure out when you want to be with someone and who that person is. You missed (but not by much) the freedom, fun, and immaturity of the teen years by getting where you are today. So relax, enjoy life, don’t do too many stupid things, and set aside time to work (yeah, like a real schedule). Maybe you should try and keep your friendships and relations separate from your goals and businesses. That way no one would have anything to ‘talk’ about behind your back.
Comment by Rob on 27 June 2007:
Dude, as rough as the circumstances are, I’m sure things are only going to get better for you Andrew, lifes full of choices, and sometimes it’s worthwhile to hit reset.
Andrew Ellis:
You’re damn straight - Arizona fucking rules. I’m not sure where you’re at, but I live in Tucson/Phoenix and absolutely love the state, I don’t think I’ll ever move. Great weather, decent people, respectable employment levels, a few problems here and there, but hey, it is a great place.
Comment by Andrew Ellis on 28 June 2007:
@Rob - I currently live up here in Colorado, and hate every minute of it. The weather, state, and most people just suck up here.
My family lives in mostly northern Phoenix in the Sun Valley (I think that’s right) area.
I’ll be down there the second and third week of July visiting family, looking for a new job, and what school opportunities I would have down there.